Amateure Stuff: May 2011

never felt this way - brian mcknight

There will never come a day
You'd ever hear me say
That I want and need to be without you
I want to give my all Baby just hold me,
simply control me Cause your arms,
they keep away the lonelies
When I look into your eyes
Then I realize That all I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life

Cause I've never felt this way about lovin'
Never felt so good
Never felt this way about lovin'
It feels so good

How it takes my breath
Starts a burning in my chest
Make me weak, when I think about you
Makes me want to give my all Life wouldn't mean a thing
Not a happy song to sing
Just emptiness if I had to live without you
When I look into your eyes
Then I realize That all I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life

8:52 PM
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Let it flow

Hey, finally I did what I really wanna do for longest time. I walked from my office to my boarding house. Not really that far. It just took + 30 minutes to walk. And it`s really fun. Walked alone in the night even maybe the polution is can hardly bear. Overall I think it will gonna my fav activity instead of work out. I can spend time. Enjoy by myself. Quite fun. There is so much way to enjoy "me time". And I took the positive way.

Walking in the middle of the night by myself is my next target. And I will have others to do list and for the hope that I have, I surely can do that.

I already took so many positive things about everything happened in my life recently. And I really wanna say thank you so much to:

My beloved Mom. Maybe this is the first time I rely my head to your shoulder, rub your back, and rub your belly (your baby is growing, mom). I really so much proud to have mom like you. You can always give the positive solve and there`s nothing I could say that I really love you.
My lovely sister. I knew that we used to be horrable sibling before. We have our ego for long time. But since I realized that you are the only, I really do care about you. I really wanna make you, mom, and dad always be happy. I`ll do everything for you.
My room-mates that I often rely on, Putri Petzy, for the time - for your willingness to hear everything - for your ability to understand my position - for your kindness - and for your suggest. Yah, you are so da*nly right. Life must goes on. And I don`t have to blow up everything in my heart (about my feeling) anymore. Stop letting somebody else know about how hurt it was. Stop blaming my self. Stop thinking the fearness. Stop stop and stop. Hahaha "Nasi sudah menjadi bubur". Just let it flow and keep smile.

P.S:

For my sister, get well soon. I will come back to home again soon. And I just wanna see that you are in okay... I promise will do everything for you and our family (also our little sist/bro)

10:04 PM
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Believe in Hope

It`s been so long since my last post.First I wanna say thanks to Naila for the award yopu gave to me. And there`re so many things happened in my life. Life is always growing, changing, or even just maybe stating. I've had so many joyfull things (but suddenly its turn around and faced me and slaped on my face). I got the worse things in my life (about my feeling). But once again, that's life and there`s so much way to get the positive things inside.

Well, I can`t lie that right now I get hurt. Really hurt. There`s nothing I could do. I just keep everything ruined and messed up. That`s only because of me. Because my indecission and my ego. Actually I wanna share u my joyfull moment, but I think it`s more appropriate when I share it in a good time (not now, sorry..).

I`ve hurt some people surrounded me. I just be the bitchiest and you know what, all I really feel now is regretfull. I apologized to YOU (I`ve ever mentioned u before) for any mistakes and for the indecission. I really don`t mean that. Still I believe in hope. I knew that now u are really in so much pain and sick of tired of being in hard feeling. What really true is I always pray the best for everything. I can`t do more than that.

And now still I believe in hope.

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